Transformers 2

Went and Saw the new Transformers 2 movie. What a crazy night. I Went to the gateway mall to catch up with my friends (I really wish that Katerina could have made it. I miss that girl). May I remind you I was with friends and it wasn't a date. They had an extra ticket and needed someone to go with them. It was really good to see them again. This movie was a little on the wild side for me. i don't think I really liked it as much as I like the first one. I feel like there was a lot of sexual humor. So it wasn't as fun as it could have been. At the end my friend had taken tracks. So I ran him to his car (which were at tracks). I forgot how long of a drive it was to get to his car. If I had remembered that I would have taken the free way instead of the back roads with all the lights.

If you all want to see this movie just know about what I said. It's an interesting show. You will also see that the characters have changed. It like the main character becomes this rich snobby and his girlfriend became very girly. When the main character used to be scared and very nice. His girl friend used to be very manly like.

JJ < a great friend indeed!

I finally got this picture in. I must say that this picture was taken about a year ago. I promised JJ that I would go with him to court when he was going to go towards his last trip there. It was an alright trip, considering that I was there for him. It makes things hard, when you see a good friend in need. Sometimes things are out of your hands and out of your control. Then you just leave it to God and let him take the wheel. I did my best to keep JJ in good spirits during this hard time. Yet I don't think I could get him to snap out of it. No matter what, JJ is still a great friend of mine, and always will be. < He is like a brother that I never had.

I've wanted to write down how great of a friend JJ is to me. I know that time and things get in the way with all the many things that we have to do and go though in this life. Yet no matter what JJ always drops everything that he is doing to help me when I need it. Which is kind of funny. I always wonder how he can always make time for me in his busy schedule. Times have been hard for both of us in our lives. Yet I don't think that I would have made it though with out a great friend like JJ.

He's a strong person with a BIG heart. He listens and understands about pain and trials. I look up to him. Wish I could be more like him. Being more understanding to others and more service in my life. He is very good with a lot of things that I just couldn't do a lone.

I remember a time when I was seriously sick. (there have actually been a few times like this). He has dropped everything and took me to the ER or the doctors. Made sure I was ok. It's been a rough road. He helped me re-modle my room at my fathers. It needed some serious work. I could be almost dead and not awake and he would pick me up and take care of whatever I needed. He is definitely one of my best friends I could ever ask for.

I hope that all goes well with his Probation. < which I think is absolutely crazy talk. When JJ had one little accident that was an ACCIDENT! And someone died (she wasn't wearing her seat belt and got tossed out of the car.) < He got the bunt of it. I don't understand this crazy stupid world. He has paid so much out of pocket. Drove back and forth for court and is still paying for the cost.

I'm sorry that I'm so strong on this. JJ has repented and is doing so much better. Yet it still hurts that he still has 4 years of probation. I wish that there was a way to take away his pain. Yet when people do stupid things, people forgive so quick without paying for there cost that they did. It just doesn't make since to me. It makes me hurt knowing that there are people out there that just don't give a care in this world.

JJ you have been a dear friend of mine. I'm truly grateful for all that you have done for me. I hope that I can be a great friend to you. I will still be here to help you in all that you are and probably will go though in this world. I'm so happy that we have been such great friends. I'm sorry that you have been going through so much. Know that God is the one to really judge on your heart and what happened. I know that you can get through this. Just keep holding on. Keep your head up and Know that you're friends truly do love and care about you. SMILE! Remember Heavenly father is always there for you, if you need him. Keep that sweet spirit, follow the lords guidance. Have faith and you can do anything, if you put your mind to it. I know that you can do great things in this world. Just keep your your chin up.

A Sweet Assurance though Answered Prayers

Everyone my Aunt Sherrie Posted this sweet talk to deseretbook.com/time-out/friends. Her wonderful story hit the article. it made me tear up, because I know what a sweet spirit my Aunt is and her kids have grown up to be such great young Adults. I look up to my aunt and the way that she raised her kids. She is truly a great lady indeed. My cousin Braden is off to serve a mission. This talk is about his faith and his desires. I hope you enjoy this story. Just as much. Love you all!

A Sweet Assurance through Answered Prayers
June 12, 2009

By Sherrie Cope

When my son Braden was a little boy, he would share his thoughts and desires to serve a mission to China. He didn't even know where China was, but he looked on the map and learned. Everyone--his friends, family, and seminary teachers--knew of his mission dream. He grew to love the people, their culture, and their food. He even took Mandarin in college so that he would have a head start and be able to list on his mission papers that he studied the language.

Braden and I would talk about the desire of his heart. I prayed right along with him that he would serve in his beloved China, specifically the Hong Kong mission. But I would also talk to him about accepting a call wherever the Lord needed him to serve. He agreed, but would remind me that the Lord knew his heart. B

raden filled out his papers and, with a prayer in his heart, they were sent to Church headquarters. Then the wait began. On the map that hung on our wall for friends and family to guess his mission he had circled Hong Kong. His mark was on the map.

A few weeks later, a big white envelope was left in our mailbox. The moment he had waited for his whole life had arrived. Our hearts were full of "JOY." Our home was soon filled with his friends and family. The envelope was placed in Braden's hands. Silence filled the room as he opened it. A sweet spirit surrounded me. Twelve years of being a single mom to three wonderful children and here was a blessed moment for me. I had already received another special moment and blessing when my other son was married in the temple the previous year. Some moms call a mission their "bittersweet years." I was just so proud and grateful.

Then Braden pulled out his call. I reminded him once again that he should prepare his heart and soul to accept the call that the Lord had for him. He smiled at me and said, "I will, Mom, the Lord knows my heart." He unfolded the paper, he read, he paused--then tears streamed down his face. Braden threw his arms up in the air. He looked at me and then around the room. He couldn't contain his feelings: "If there is anyone in this room who doesn't believe that God answers little boys’ prayers then you talk to me!"

I screamed at Braden with tears in my eyes and asked, "Braden, are you going to China?" He picked up the paper and said, "Mom, I am going to the China Hong Kong Mission." It was truly the most incredible moment of my life. The Spirit was so strong in our home. I felt the love of our Heavenly Father. The Lord and Braden both knew that he had grown up with the desire in his heart to serve the people of China.

Braden officially became Elder Cope in September 2008. He has been on his mission for eight months and has been in Hong Kong for five. He is experiencing the hard yet loving life of a missionary. He had to learn Cantonese and is learning how to converse with the people there. He is truly reaping the rewards of his childhood dream. Elder Cope has learned to trust in the Lord with all his heart and we know that with faith and good works he can accomplish the work of the Lord.

I have a sweet assurance that the Lord loves me and my three children. The truth of the gospel has blessed our lives in so many ways. We are grateful to Elder Cope for the blessings of his service and the way that is it blessing our lives.

SPECTACULAR

Ok! So my sister has been wanting to see this movie for I don't know how long now. When I saw commercials I didn't really want to see it. Until I found out that Mike K. wrote three songs in this movie. Then I became very interested, finally rented it and watched it with McKenzie. I guess you can say that it spiked my interest into finally watching it. I really did like it. Super cute movie. It makes you want to jump up, join in singing, and dancing. McKenzie was really falling in love with the guy who played the EX boy friend. I believe it was just his looks and not his personality that she was falling for. He wasn't a very nice man if you asked me. A little too greedy and he was very stuck on himself. Yet, She would automatically start grinning and giggling as soon as he got on the screen. It was super cute to watch.

I think if you get the chance you should watch it. Just because it will lighten your mood, Or just listen to this little video over and over. Because the music is very motivational. There was a lot of very talented people who put this movie together. I'm so happy that they have been making more family fun movies, that have singing and dancing. They are so much fun to watch. Well I'm going to get off. I'm super tired. LOVE YOU ALL! Get up and Dance!

Multi Stake Activity

Today we had a multi Stake Activity. It was really fun. I think half of the ward was there for this activity/ BBQ. I have always enjoyed being around those that I truly care about. I have missed my ward. I was super shocked how I became center of attention at the activity. I was laughing. I know for a fact my name was warn out really bad. I didn't mind it at all. JJ took this picture of Amanda and I < She is my Visiting teacher. TOTAL sweet heart.

We played a game called 500 (dead or alive). Whom ever caught the foot ball and gathered all the point won. lol! it's kind of complicated. I would explain it, yet it's getting really late.

I'm so happy that I am truly blessed to be around such great people. :) Love you guys! Can't wait for Sunday. I heard that my friend Liz and Lora have a song that they are going to be singing. Hopefully I will be feeling well to go to church. I seem to have my good days and bad days. Ever since I could eat again. I've been lacking a lot of vitamins and protein. Holy cow have I been eating a lot. It's bad to go on liquids for so long. You end up having over board eating. I'm getting a hang of my eating habit again, and my diet. lol! Should have been taking vitamins during my sick time. oh well too late now.

I'm looking forward to more activities and looking forward to being with friends again. It's going to be a really fun Summer. Plan activities, I will be there. :)

Update! Update!

Hey Everyone. I need to get a few things off of my chest. Today has been good. Yet I just found out the other day when I got back from recovery. That my work is letting 4 of us girls go from work, at the end of the month. (Because of their funding has been cut). < I really don't like the economy. It makes me really sad that my job is ending. I’ve really enjoyed this job and enjoyed the people that I have worked with. It’s been really nice to have, especially since I have been sick so much this year. My boss has helped me out more then you will ever know. It’s been really good to work at the Utah Health Department working in the department of Epidemiology. I don’t know what I’m going to do next? I’m excited to have a new adventure, yet at the same time scared that I won’t find anything because of the economy. I’m just not giving up hope yet. Keeping strong and do all that I can to find something good, while I still have this job.

Things have been going well since I got my tonsils out. I’m starting to talk more. It’s been an interesting adventure, going from not being able to talk, sleeping all day, and not being able to eat anything. It makes you appreciate good food, your health, and you’re voice. That’s all I ever do is talk! It runs in the family. I’m just happy that I can talk again. It’s good to be back in the world. Thank you everyone who was very friendly during this time, when I really needed family and friends. I don’t think I could of made it though with out with your support and love. I’m sure it would have been really lonely without you guys.

If you could read my mind

Weird story I talk to my Ex. Not going to say who though. I just want to talk about some feelings that I'm having. I want to mention how much in love I was way back in the day. When we were together things were really good. So good that he asked me to marry him. We were going to get married November 17 2006. I was truly happy. I could see myself with him. Every time I prayed to see if he was the right man for me in my life. I did get the "OK". I was in denial because of everything that was going on ESPECIALLY with my family. They didn't want me to marry him. For one reason or another. There was so much stress and contention that My man and I started to fight, majority of it was over my family and how they didn't support the marriage. His mom was controling a lot of the wedding plans. I started to get depressed. Wanted to push the date to Spring so that my father could make it to the temple. Lets just say that my man wasn't happy to hear that I talked with my father and decided that it would be better to push the date. I felt like it would have been better on both families with money and especially on me. Because I felt like I was in over my head.

To make a long story short It pushed "US" apart. I remember there was a lot said to the point where I walked away from the situation. Over these years I have made him into this monster in my head. I don't even remember what we were arguing about and what really happend. When I ran into him. I remembered why I fell for him in the first place. The only thing that is different now is that it hit us both really hard. He hasn't really been with anyone since. I've been dating so much and feel like I'm not the same person that I used to be.

We started talking about all the good times. I don't think there is any love there anymore. There is just a friendship. A bond that is oldly still there. I run into his father now and then. < He is such a great man. I always wonder where my life would be if I followed what Heavenly Father was telling me. I always wonder. My parents always say "you would be divorced and with a child by now". It makes me really sad that things like this is said. I don't feel like he knew them, and they don't know him. I just know it ended badly.

He appoloized for doing certain things to me during that time. Which needed to be said. Yet I know that I didn't help the situation. It is just time that it was clear in the air. I know that he is still in depression and still isn't over the whole break up. I feel bad. I just wish that there wasn't so much contention in this world. It makes things harder.

Life is not easy. It is hard and there are challenges in this life that isn't fare. I wish that when you do find the one that you could be with for the rest of your life. Jump! Especially when God tells you to. I do know that I'm frustrated with it. I've been lost, confusded, frustrated, and a lone. I hate dating. I don't like taking so much of my time to get to know someone, then getting my heart broken. Or knowing that they are not the one so I leave. This game of love isn't fun at all. I want to say that I'm not on the market. I have to pick up my life. Find myself again. I'm getting there (which is wonderful). I feel like everytime I find myself I get myself in a relationship. Lose love! Then lose myself again. I'm tired emotionally. You're heart can only take so much till the point where you get lost in this game called love. Know I'm well and happy where I am in my life right now. I just know that things will get better and the love of my life will come sometime in the near future. Keep your head up, Keep smiling, and never give up. God always has a plan. Even if it means going on a different path to get to him. Love you all!

Surgery!

So I finally did it. I finally got my tonsils out June 3rd 2009. Talk about PAIN! These pictures were taken before my surgery. I was doing alright, very chipper and very talkative. Now With all the stitches in my throat I'm in so much pain. I knew I was going to be in pain, I just couldn't imagine the pain. I had JJ come pick me up and dropped me off at tracks so I could head to my surgery. He gave me a cute little bear. Yet when all my other friends haven't realized what kind of pain that I would be in. I'm a little disappointed that I haven't really seen them. Nor have they even tried to contact me. I've had some think that it was an easy in, easy out surgery. That I could talk, giggle and still be myself. I have a few dates coming up. Yet I was like "Can you not come and see me in between???" It's really gay. Thinking of canceling on them. If you can't come see me when I'm sick, why should I go on the date? Think about it.

My baby sister has been my real hero. she's been there for me 100% She is truly amazing. She checks on me. We watched a movie. She didn't care that I couldn't really talk. She just kept me company. No one can replace my baby sister. I tell all my friends how amazing she is. Because really she is! She proves it to me all the time.

I'm starting to feel sick again. Need to go lay down. SO I will talk with all of you later. Remember you can always text me. That seems to be my social life lately. Love you all!